| In Missouri |
[Aug. 22nd, 2008|04:37 pm] |
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Well I'm in Missouri kind of trying to find a place to stay. Start school on Monday and I'm excited. A little scared of bouncing around from place to place here while trying to find a place to call home... It's going to be an interesting couple of years. Financially I was ramping up before the divorce, now not so much... Starting from scratch ain't easy but I'll get by and things will get better. Never give up is my motto lol. Where there is a will there is a way! |
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| 2 weeks notice in leaving :) |
[Jul. 31st, 2008|02:29 pm] |
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I'm out of Altanta and good riddance! Back to college I start on the 25th of August. I am OUTTA HERE! |
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| Stuck with this car! |
[Jul. 7th, 2008|12:38 pm] |
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So I went to trade in my car so I could help my x out a little bit and they offered me (drumroll) 11 thousand!!! Still owing 20 thousand on it, my new payments on trading it in for another car were going to be (DRUMROLLLL!!!!) 520 dollars a month! EEHHHH looks like I'm stuck with this beast for a while lol... |
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| iffy diffy |
[Apr. 14th, 2008|02:06 pm] |
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I went to see my dad this weekend and although I thought about Nicole a lot, it was easier being around family. I came home this morning and Nicole had gotten almost all the rest of her things. It was so depressing and has made this day ridiculously hard to get through. Is it only 2:07PM? Man... I can't just up and leave Atlanta (which is depressing in its own right), but I will be planning on leaving moving forward. There is nothing else here for me. Nicole was it. Man today SUCKS! I just... need to be around PEOPLE I KNOW. |
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| Well she left me |
[Apr. 10th, 2008|03:42 pm] |
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My wonderful wife Nicole decided she didn't want to do the marriage anymore and took off. That really sucks. Guess I wasn't the best husband out there but I tried. Other than that the job is good and Atlanta is ok I guess... Don't want to live here anymore though! |
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| Much needed update |
[Jun. 15th, 2006|04:16 pm] |
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Helloooo Nurse. I havn't checked livejournal since like when I was 73 (it was a very good year) >>>> SOooo I got this job at Mastercard, it's a good job that pays more money than I thought I'd be getting at this age, so hey win win win win! Anyway the only person thats going to read this is Steph and Nicole <3 U both. PEASH |
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| Drinking songs! |
[Sep. 29th, 2005|10:11 am] |
I've compiled a quick list of songs that suit every stage of the night of heavy drinking. :-P
Getting ready: Bare Naked Ladies - Hello City
Starting the night: 2Pac - Gangsta party
Getting into it: Any 50 Cent song. Really.
Heavy Drinking begins: Dave Matthews Band - Tripping Billies
Good and drunk: Foo Fighters - The best of you
Depression sets in: Matchbox 20 - Unwell
The Crying stage: The Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
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Btw I posted this on myspace. Yes I finnally gave in after the 10th person told me to sign up on it.
www.myspace.com/chrispetersinc |
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[Sep. 20th, 2005|06:23 pm] |
Phil Collins --> Against all Odds.
That song is T-e-H shit.
Anyway hi. My name is Chris. I've lived in over 10 different cities. I've gone to 4 different high schools and 7 different colleges (working on #8).
I'm Majoring in IT with emphasis on marketing.
When I drink, I get so stupid that somebody got offended. SOMEBODY fucking got offended.
I'm married, it's hard, not what they said it would be like, but I'm doing it. |
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| The best song I have ever heared. |
[Sep. 19th, 2005|08:58 pm] |
I wish I could just make you turn around. Turn around and see me cry. Theres so much I need to say to you. So many reasons why. Your the only one who really knew me at all...
So take a look at me now. Well there's just an empty space. Well there's nothing LEFT HERE TO REMIND ME! JUST A MEMORY OF YOUR FACE! NOW TAKE A LOOK AT ME NOW!
CAUSE THERE"S JUST AN EMPTY SPACE! But to wait for you is all I can do and thats what I got to face. Take a good look at me now. Cause I'll be still standing here. Cause you coming back to me is against all odds is the chance I'll have to have to take.
Take a look at me now...
Take a look at me now...
This is the best song I have ever heared. |
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| New orleans |
[Sep. 6th, 2005|01:29 pm] |
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The mayor of New Orleans, C Ray Nagin, is the man. Pure and simple. Nagin for prez! |
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| Uhhh (nah nah nah nah) |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|09:21 pm] |
So work is going great, home life is going great, things couldn't be sweeter.
Except I have sex dreams EVERY NIGHT. Crazy wild sexy ass sex dreams I couldn't ever think of if I tried! ARRRGGG!
Thats about it. |
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| It's 5:17am |
[Jun. 22nd, 2005|05:17 pm] |
3am - 6am --- best time to update my livejournal.
Well... I sit in here reflecting on how life used to be... The lonely nights outweighing the rest with my radio lulling me to sleep with my favorite songs. Sometimes I miss it. The freedom. Free to go wherever and to hell with the consequences. The two in the morning drives across the countryside and through state lines because I needed a little fresh air. The endless searching for something to fill the lonelyness and emptyness inside. The crazy and utterly painful embarrising things I did in the pursuit of such equisite togetherness with another. Now it's a little different. But I always have someone to put my arm around when things get tough now. So maybe the air is still fresh, and equisite togetherness found. |
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| I have come to terms with something |
[Jun. 18th, 2005|11:59 am] |
I like to play video games in my free time when I have nothing else to do.
No, I LOVE to play them in my spare time when I have nothing to do.
I DON'T like going to the store to get toilet paper with nicole 30 minutes after she decided she wanted to run errands by herself cause "it will get me away from my stupid games. Who cares it's what i enjoy doing. And I really don't like getting shit for saying naw honey I think I'll stay here see you later.
If women have a problem with it then maybe I should have stated it for the world to hear that when I'm bored with nothing to do (thats entertaining) I like to play VIDEO GAMES! OMG OH MY GOD NOOOOO ITS BAD FOR YOU (pssst I don't care as long as I can A. Graduate College B. Become sucessful, C. Stay in good health and physical shape and D. Not be bored off my ass all the time, I believe it is ok for me to play video games or computer games as much as I please.
Having people get pissed at me cause I'm on the computer instead of doing something else like watching TV or go do pointless "nothing" activities that frankly bore the pants off of me. (Note that I make efforts to do things I should be doing like going out to the store and buying food or things I need and making efforts to go with Nicole to things I don't have to go to but going anyway (or trying to) because she wants me to. |
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| nicole is a lesbian |
[May. 17th, 2005|11:43 am] |
I bet if I were black we'd get freaky at least once a month.
She doesn't even like it.
She doesn't care about it.
She ignores my hints and turns around.
She doesn't like to have any fun in bed EVER.
She's a nun. |
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[Apr. 16th, 2005|02:33 am] |
Hope --dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption
HEY!! It's 2:30AM and like always at 2:30AM I am at my purest and most mellow state of mind.
The last few months have been a wild rollercoaster. I stole my girl away from her family to get married, but she didn't take it too well. I've almost finished another semester of school, but Calculous is kicking my gluttious maximus. My brother got a great job at Amazon.com, but--- I don't have anyone to play stupid complex boring online games with anymore.. So life has had its ups and downs. Fortunatly I havn't been seriously maimed or drafted back into the Marines. I have been sticking to a light regimine of working out, just enough to stay in shape, not enough to get super buff.
You know I've been thinking a lot about school lately. It really is unnecessary... I don't think I've really learned anything I couldn't learn 10 times better just by necessity in real life. Maybe I will leave... naw.. I don't know... I'm kind of thinking it's a waste of time and that the people who truly have the drive to be sucessful don't need to wave a degree in front of someone's face to prove that they are capable of great things. I think I am passing up a lot of opportunities. I passed up a job offer as a manager for a growing pottery hanging business in downtown seattle (head manager!!). The owner saw me working at Blockbuster and offered me the job on the spot, and again the next day, and again the next day, for 3 weeks. I turned him down every time because I said I had to go to the east side of the state for college. I'll never know if that was a good idea or not. I passed a few more during my time int he marines... But I think there will be plenty of opportunities and hell I'd rather OPEN my own shop than work for one. My wife seems sceptical about a lot of things, ideas, directions, that I think of but hopefully I can seperate my personal married life with her from my professional life. Becuase honestly she has no place in that, but she does have a place in my heart and hopefully I will be able to make enough money so that she doesn't have to worry about things like that anwyay. She does worry a lot, about a lot of things. In fact she complains a lot, but I'm getting used to it and I think thats just how she accepts things. You know I complain a lot too when I'm in bad situation too haha. I feel really bad for her every day, she is in a terrible position in a town she hates. Hopefully I can graduate college without us getting a divorce.
Hey speaking of wives, we had an excercise this week in Anthropology where it was the guy's goal to get as many wives as he could and the gals goal was to be the only, or first wife of a guy. I got a few wives :P it was cool. I'm really getting used to the people and the area, and it's starting to grow on me. The kids in my classes arn't as stuffy as I originally thought. In fact, the ones in Anthropology are downright goofy! I think thats my favorite class, with Accounting as my second (NOT ACCOUNTING THE SUBJECT, the classmates in accounting) because people are always asking me to help them with a problem and I'm always telling them that I'm just as lost as them haha. It all started when I randomly got some really hard problem the professor asked right.. It was dumb luck :P. Anyway, I should crawl into bed. Since it is 2:30am and all (cough friday 2:30am = PARTYTIME cough) ---- sigh.............
hey you know what sounds good right now? Jack in the box... Mmmmmmmmmmmmm. . . . . . . . . YEAH!
I'm hitting the gym tommorow for at least 2 hours anyway :P
by the way. Does anyone know why the most common encryption algorythms use prime numbers instead of any number INCLUDING prime numbers? I mean the way these algorythms are cracked is by powerful computers bluntly trying every single combination of PRIME numbers, but if it was, say, a large prime number around the 2 billions, and a large NON prime number in the 3 billions, it would take freaking years for a machine to do this. Or hell, 2 prime numbers and one none prime number, ... ok wait.. prime numbers make more sense.. it's harder to find them. takes processing power... but hmm.. still would take more processing power to just go through every number.. I think... Wouldn't it? damn... I need to program a routine tonight and check it. Ok nerd mode sorry... |
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| post springbreak post |
[Mar. 29th, 2005|01:10 am] |
Man Springbreak was great... I got to hang out with Matt who is really cool and Nicole hung out with Irine, his wife. They're both 21 got married 2 years ago crazy eh? anyway he's in the Army and they're putting him through college and he's almost done (he had to spend like 2 years in Kosavo) but he loves it! I guess it's different than the Marines lol. We spent as much time as we could playing this new game on the Xbox, but it would be like 1 hour bursts or late at night when everyone went to bed cause every time we broke it out both of our wives started complaining and paying attention to us and wanting us to pay attention to them (isn't it wierd how they don't say a word to you UNLESS your doing something you want to do that does not involve them? Then they are desperate for attention).
Well the end of spring break came about and what followed was the gayest most retarded fucked up week of our marriage (she had some new problem with me every minute and nagged me about it 24/7 every second I was home so I got fed up on Thursday, left home to get away from her, and got piss ass stupid drunk, which pissed her off about 100 times more). Well we've all had our talks to eachother and I just won't do that again. Everyone found out about it and I got the "you are a fucking idiot" talk from a bunch of people including getting cussed at by my dad and told that I was a dissapointment and urged me to drop out of college and stop wasting his money (*cough* he doesn't pay for my tuition anymore and all he does is send me half my rent each month *cough*). Yeah well everything is better now I guess she was PMSing all week or something and I promised her I wouldn't go out and drink if I got mad at her again and she promised me she wouldn't get on my case 24/7 and we all felt better by Sunday.
So other than my dad hating me and thinking I'm a failure (which isn't much different than before) I think things went well. They definitly needed to come to a head becuase I had a lot of problems with her and she had a lot of problems with me and I was afraid to communicate with her about them because she would break down and cry. From now on we both decided that it's better for me to let things out even if it means she'll break down and cry for a day than for me to keep it all bottled up inside and just try to avoid her heh...
Marriage is hard folks. Stay single, work hard, move to a remote third world country, become king, have 150 concubines willing to gratify you in every way possible just for the privilege to be around you, and be happy :-P thats the way to do it! I guess if your willing to work hard you can be happy doing the marriage thing too ;)...
We were very happy and very much in love today, so lets just pray that I can be more... diplomatic in the future with. |
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| Temporarily closed |
[Mar. 10th, 2005|07:14 pm] |
I'm taking a hiatus from livejournal (already have really) because every time I get on to write I don't have anything positive to say. Lets face it, this is a hard time and it would hurt some peoples feelings if I publicly bitched about it the way I did about the Marine Corps. So...
later |
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| Stretched Thin |
[Mar. 2nd, 2005|10:41 pm] |
I'm hanging on. Nicole wanted me to post a picture of our cat so here
Al in all his glory
Oh and a picture I took a while ago outside my apartments just to even things out
Frosty the drunk one eyed chainsmoking erectile disfunctioned snowman |
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[Feb. 10th, 2005|06:52 pm] |
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Well there have been ups and downs to this married life so far. We've had misunderstandings (oooh so many) but we've always come around and talked about them later and resolved all of our issues. So I think we're gonna make it. Our cat went back to cool. For a while he was sprinting out of every room I was in but he eventually came to accept me and now he's back to lying on my stomach haha. It definitely is an alpha male situation. I swear he thinks I'm a cat :-P He's a good cat.
In other news I've jumpstarted my workout routine again now that we're basically all set up. I've worked out for an hour almost every day the past week and I'm SO motivated to do it cause I'm seriously feeling out of shape (I'm out of breath after 8 minutes of running!!!) Anyway I already feel and look better in my opinion. Unfortunately Nicole HATEEEESS to work out, but she's still good looking and maintains a GREAT body somehow haha.
Ok back to math. Ugh Calculus BLOWS. I mean when the hell am I going to use all this crizap??? Finding the derivative of
e^(X^2+X^3/X^5+5)/e^yougetthepoint. NEVERRRRR I've already taken some business classes and believe me you save that for the mathematicians. I guess it's good to know though haha. How knows I may one day be the only surviving college graduate on the planet and people will have to depend on me for mathematic formulas and the GAAP accounting principles. (actually I'll definitely use the accounting principles with my business but hey bear with me ;-)))) |
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| Vent. Don't read unless you like very negative thoughts. |
[Feb. 6th, 2005|01:28 am] |
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Ok for some reason out of the blue our cat Al has started to run from the room every time I come in. All I've done is pet him and he used to come to me all the time. Now if I look at him he runs. It's like I beat him or something yet I didn't. He only comes to Nicole and it's really bothering me. I don't feel like he's part of the family if he's running from the room like a freaking pyschopathic animal every time I come in. I want to take him back he's started to make me really uncomfortable. Actually I'm starting to figure out why he does this. Every time I kiss Nicole or hold her in front of him he walks away and starts acting like this. It's like some male territorial crap. ... Anyways....
Last night we went to the most crappiest freakiest don't ever want to do that again club. I mean I'm open minded, but I'm not stupid. That was just gross. We went to a club and it was nothing but like 4 nothing-but-purple-stretch cloths wearing gays and lesbians gliding on the dance floor to some just ear piercing music in this huge club. That was it. THey made us pay before letting us step one foot in. we sat there. for a little bit. then left. Where we promply got threatened by some drunk idiot. They didn't even sell mixed drinks. They sold beer. They were out of most.
Then today Nicole was depressed as always. Man I'm ALWAYS depressed because I know she hates it up here but I keep a good face on and I try to act cheerful, which is frustrated when she makes angry comments like "I'm glad your happy". And I'm not. I'm not I'm not I'm not and I'm not. My family is STILL unsupportive which makes her very uncomfortable with them (Her family gave us $2000 and lots of gifts, payed thousands for the wedding, and her grandma is probably gettings us a bed -- my family got us some pots and pans, started only paying 1/3rd of tuition (I came up with the rest) and my dad is angry at me every time I call him.) I got harrased by the stupid government, which I am starting to not like at all, and I can't find a damn job to pay for things and neither can Nicole and I have school to worry about. By all intents and purposes I should be fucking flying off the handle at everything but no I keep a happy face and make cheerful comments to Nicole by the minute and try to make her feel better. I'm wearing a smile mask and it's wearing fucking thin.
The only good thing is I started working out again today. I felt the endorphins kick in and I don't know why the hell I ever stopped. Got too busy but I'm telling you I don't care how busy I get I'm going because I NEED IT MORE THAN ANYTHING. It's the only way I can get my frustrations out and it feels damn good.
Cause sex doesn't do it. Nicole can only have sex 1 time in a 2-4 day period. No she can't have sex twice in one night ohhh hell no. What is up with that? She has some sort of problem down there! I went from dating girls who liked to have sex all night long to dating a girl who has some sort of FEAR of sex. Long Distance. For 2 years. THen I married her!!! YEAH THATS RIGHT! I'm venting I havn't vented for a LONG FUCKING TIME. I don't care. I get to be in a bad mood. Lets make her the one that tries to get me in a better mood for once! I'm sick of having to be the damn leader. I thought this was a partnership... |
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